我们熬过来了

我们熬过来了, a sentence which my sister and I have been reminding ourselves every now and then for the past 1half yr or so.

And imo, we can jolly well remind each other about this again and again for the next 5 years or so if we feel like it.

If you’re thinking of some soap story of us having a very horrible childhood then I can assure you, things couldn’t be more of the opposite.  You see, we’ve a wonderful set of parents. In our family, even though we don’t have any extra vitamin M to spare during our childhood years, we’ve a lot of love. More than you can ever imagine. Whatever area that req vitamin M, our family use love to replace it.

In the sentence, the word“熬”, I’m referring it to the vitamin M & studies area. Oh boyyyyy. We really did“熬” I’m telling ya.

When I was in secondary school, when all my other friends are using Roxy, Quiksilver, Nike and the likes products as if its only right to have such items in their possession, I was using a hand-me-down bag and even though I wasn’t particularly happy about it, I wasn’t upset either. I was.. neutral. Its just a bag, thats what I think back then. Until.. my sister actually bought me a Shayrer backpack with her hard earned $ from her part time job.  I was touched (and very happy!) to the max and I used that bag for the rest of my secondary school years if I’m not wrong. (My mum actually bought me a new bag when I was 13, a bag which I really really like a lot but its damn cui. I think after a few months the handle broke and I didn’t get another new bag since then. ) I use used plastic bottles as my water bottle when most students are carrying Adidas and other sports brand water bottles and its not until the newspaper reported that using used water bottle is harmful for our health, I think I’m gonna continue using it for a long time. Anyway, my mum bought me a Nalgene water bottle when I was 15 and I’m still using it now. 23 this yr, nearly 8 years later and I’m still using it.

We aren’t lacking in anything. We’ve the necessities, at months, barely scraping through, but yes, we always somehow or rather, made it.

I take pride in the fact that both my sis and I have been earning our own keep since we were 15/16 respectively.

I bought a computer with my own savings, saved through a PT job, when I was 16.

I try to my very best to pay for all the textbooks used during poly years with my own money as well. And thats exactly the reason why I don’t buy the original. I always get it photocopied.

Our last family trip before my sis and I started working was when I was 12, to Genting. After that, when both my sis and I started sec school, I guess expenses just kinda raised up and we just don’t have any extra to spare for leisure activities. I’m proud to say that we brought our parents to Langkawi for a short stay last year with their expenses borne by us and we’re planning to have a short trip every yr! 😀

Our family have never go out to casual dining places for meals cause its too pricey until my sis’s 21st I think. Their elder daughter’s 21st leh, impt yr! We had a meal at Crystal Jade I still rmb. What other families are doing almost every week, to us its a rare occasion, and exactly because it’s rare, we treasure it very much so.

And I do think that because I’m in my family where materialistic things don’t come naturally, I’m very appreciative for every small thing. Because we know that my parents are working so very hard, literally using their 血汗钱 to let us study, my sis and I work doubly hard for our studies in order not to let them down. Because we’ve seen how my parentsthrough the period as well, we tried our best to give our parents a better life.

This post was just kinda triggered by a letter I received in the mail today. Its from CPF, notifying me that I’ve this certain amt of $ left to pay for my poly fees. (Anyway, very happy! Ard 1/4 of e amt left to go!) That’s when it hit me, you know? Like.. “hey.. you’re paying your own poly fees all the while, giving your parents $ every mth, saving up for your degree, going to different countries for holidays with all expenses paid by yourself.. ALL these happening at the same time..you’re quite something you know?” (I don’t care what you think, but I do think I’m quite something. I know for sure there are others out there who can do better, but right now, I seriously do think I’m awesome.)

Its not easy to be doing all these things, to shoulder a burden like such since you’re a teenager. At times, its really such a pain in the ass to be thinking about all these problem, when friends all around you are happily enjoying, not having a care in the world with issues like such. We’ve complained to each other, grumble and whine, yes. And sometimes when I just feel like giving up and say, you know what, I don’t care and I don’t give a damn! I’m so glad we’ve pulled it through somehow. Along with the tears, along with the setbacks, we’ve pulled it through!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I so feel like giving myself a hug right now seriously.

Well done. Good job, kaiwen! Good job, cheche! 😀

(blow kisses* to cheche)

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